Dear Ms. Ramella,
Our relationship started way before we met in person. At times I wonder if your existence is something somehow engraved in my deeper subconcious being. The way you match me and delight me seems as if you were always in my dreams.
I came to the Palouse in the fall of 1998. I was too cheap/not interested in TV but had a radio. Radio was my most common connection with the world. NPR was on every morning and every evening until the classics started. I enjoyed all the news and weekend shows. I took pride in being a regular listener because I felt my life was enriched by listening more. And it was all I had.
When I would get home I would turn the radio on and get pleasure out of hearing your voice update me on the goings on in the world. I actually preferred you the most. You were so lively, upbeat and fresh. I was attracted to your voice immediately and fantacized about meeting you. I thought it would be great to meet you over dinner in Seattle somewhere. I pictured a 30 something (~35) dark brown hair with some curls, a big smile. I saw you fit and beautiful, kind of like Gloria Estefan but with more of a mediteranean exotic heritage. You were there with me when I would make dinner and study. You were with me in many intimate moments. The blinds pulled down, you and I. My attraction was never psycho stalker like, but more gave me boyish giggle and dreamy sigh whenever I heard you. In my apartment or on anyone else's radio. I pictured you married, mother, 10 years older than me and incognito on the west side. But part of me thought and knew if I could meet you in between your marriage, I could rock your world and be a great man to you. I actually imagined sweeping you off your feet. Seriously.
I am thankful for all that we have went through to get to here. Through past searches for love, I smile to realize all the time you were always there. One experience is bold in my mind where I can see the power of you in my life. I was camped on Vancouver Island looking back to Washington. I was alone, just had an encounter with a bear, and felt myself in a height of my manhood. I was determined and felt strong in myself. I also felt primal needs... for a partner. To form my own clan. And when I looked back to the mainland I felt a sense of emptiness in my current relationship. I didn't recieve what I gave to her. I felt something flaky about her, but I believed so much in her that I didn't think it would matter. I actually thought my love could make her a better person. So battling with this (June 2006) I get in my truck and tuned in one of your stations near Port Angeles. It was the warm familiarity I had known since I first ventured out on my own. All triggered by hearing you, I felt home. I was filled with hope in my dreams.
I stopped and had a wonderful homecooked meal. Again you on the radio, and I reveled in your sucess and magnitude, reaching so many miles away with your warm spirit. I got giddy and remember thinking to myself... There she is again. What if I met her someday? I drove on many miles of road thinking I was driving further from you, but I was actually getting closer. My life has never been the same.
I love you Ms. Ramella.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
You are so much fun!!
Dear Ms. Ramella,
I am so impressed at your willingness to try new things and your athletic ability.
"Sure, I'll try snowboarding with you," you say. Friends warned me. They said not to try doing this with your significant other. Get her lessons. You have been doing it for so long she will just get frustrated with you because she isn't at the same level. People told me stories of arguments and general unfun times when they were going to try what I did.
With you Ms. Ramella, the whole world has been different and I realized not many people have what we have. I know you are understanding and want to teach me. You love to see my world. That is why I thought to heck with what they all say, I'm going to teach you. Let's see... 14 years vs a day snowboarding.
Right off the bat you make it all the way up the rope tow and that is freakin hard. Dare I say natural? I imagine your long, slender, buxom body at home poised on a surfboard at some tropical isle. Soon we're on to the big stuff and you actually connect turns. You fell but kept pulling yourself up, all while keeping your great attitude. You've got great poise, and even the little kids get out of your way like you are a force to be reconed with.
What a fun and amazing day. You wanted to go longer than some of my friends. You are amazing. If this is how new adventures are going to be with you, gimme gimme more.
I am so impressed at your willingness to try new things and your athletic ability.
"Sure, I'll try snowboarding with you," you say. Friends warned me. They said not to try doing this with your significant other. Get her lessons. You have been doing it for so long she will just get frustrated with you because she isn't at the same level. People told me stories of arguments and general unfun times when they were going to try what I did.
With you Ms. Ramella, the whole world has been different and I realized not many people have what we have. I know you are understanding and want to teach me. You love to see my world. That is why I thought to heck with what they all say, I'm going to teach you. Let's see... 14 years vs a day snowboarding.
Right off the bat you make it all the way up the rope tow and that is freakin hard. Dare I say natural? I imagine your long, slender, buxom body at home poised on a surfboard at some tropical isle. Soon we're on to the big stuff and you actually connect turns. You fell but kept pulling yourself up, all while keeping your great attitude. You've got great poise, and even the little kids get out of your way like you are a force to be reconed with.
What a fun and amazing day. You wanted to go longer than some of my friends. You are amazing. If this is how new adventures are going to be with you, gimme gimme more.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
To be with you...
To be with you is to be with my best friend.
To be with you is to live in my dreams and beyond. At times this feels like dreaming, but dreams could not be so perfect.
To be with you is to be with an incredible independent woman.
To be with you is to be with one who shows her love for me more than any other.
Sueann, thank you for last weekend. The time we spend together is how I would like any time with a partner to be. Together we get things done. We cook together, plan together, go on adventures together, get up early together, all with such comfort and ease. You make it easy to love you, because you are so wonderful and giving, the perfect realization of everything I need in a partner. Just when it seems like I am already in nirvana with you, you take me a step further. And this happens everyday, growing and beaming inside me with our shared desires, our shared love.
To be with you is where I want to be, today, tomorrow, the day after and every day after.
To be with you is to live in my dreams and beyond. At times this feels like dreaming, but dreams could not be so perfect.
To be with you is to be with an incredible independent woman.
To be with you is to be with one who shows her love for me more than any other.
Sueann, thank you for last weekend. The time we spend together is how I would like any time with a partner to be. Together we get things done. We cook together, plan together, go on adventures together, get up early together, all with such comfort and ease. You make it easy to love you, because you are so wonderful and giving, the perfect realization of everything I need in a partner. Just when it seems like I am already in nirvana with you, you take me a step further. And this happens everyday, growing and beaming inside me with our shared desires, our shared love.
To be with you is where I want to be, today, tomorrow, the day after and every day after.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
What you do to me
Happy Valentine's Day Baby!
I have never been so in love
Time and time past do not compare
Yet it takes me back
Feeling that rooted deep in my existence
Adolescent energy caveman urges
Without question
You hit all the right senses in me
All one needs in life
For every day with you is a slice of heaven
The best partner for any adventure
In my mind all times
Wanting you more with each breath
My desire grows exponentially
Even more when we are apart
Ecstatic, wanting, grunting, clawing
All it takes is your smell
Taste of divine intervention
You are perfection to me
Please understand as I try to explain
You were made for me, and I was made for you
It’s in our genetics, in our blood.
Together we make the most beautiful poetry.
Sweet dreams fill my head
Living with the vision of you in my life
Yours in loyal, loving compassion
Ben
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
It's my pleasure
Dear Ms. Ramella,
It's my pleasure to be in your company. You are so playful and fun. I like how you let it all hang out dancing and you make a point of truly being yourself. You are one of the happiest people I know. You shed inhibitions and share your happiness with all those around you. You get to the heart of the matter. Next to my mother, you are the most beautiful person I know.
And just look at this photo. Your sense of style and improvisation is superb. Through your care you have brought great things to my life. My mechanic hands got a manicure, seasoned face got a green tea mask, and I will now go to the mall just to be with you. Your spirit brings a refreshing balance of softness and nurturing that I have come to depend on every day. Aside from wooing me with fashion, you have influenced my life greatly in terms of what one should expect and project from the world around. Thanks for letting me learn more about the world through your eyes. You teach me so much.
I'd have to say it's more than my pleasure; it's my priviledge to be in your company. Through the actions of my love, I think you will find these feelings reciprocal.
Letter to your mom
Dear Mrs. Ramella,
Please consider me for the position as serving as loving faithful boyfriend to your most excellent daughter, Sueann. I think you will find through my deeds, experience, and life that I am a great man for her. For the past 6 months the majority of my free time has been with your daughter having some of the most memorable joyous experiences I have ever had. I love Sueann very much and would go to great means for her.
Ever since I was little, I knew great things were in store for me. Early life experiences taught me the importance of honesty, perseverance, and hard work. Growing up, I did various jobs to help those in my community and provide for those things I need in my life. My first official job was as a dishwasher/prep cook and I also cooked for my family often, which should be an indication of my kitchen skills. Please have some of my homemade Sueann Friendly bread as a token of this. I love cooking new dishes for your daughter and promise to share in household chores because I see them as a shared responsibility. When Sueann was having an open house and little time to get ready, I took off work to clean and do work on her house.
Through my hard work and dedication, I have received great character references and never had a problem pleasing those I work for. Before I finished my master’s degree, I received a faculty position at Washington State University. This career has a bright future and my talents have been recognized as I have recently received two job offers and a healthy promotion after just 3 years. My teaching and mentoring role is also growing. I am in charge of a new cutting edge analytical laboratory that analyzes samples for forensics, biology, hydrology, astronomy, and global change research throughout the world, with clientele and capabilities growing constantly. My efforts have allowed me to support myself through school and buy a home.
My father and grandfather instilled in me that anything is possible if you believe you can do it. Both also taught me the importance of family. My father left a high paying accountant job to raise our family on an earthy crunchy farm because he cared so much about our experience being wholesome and healthy. My dad built our house, fixed our cars, and raised our crops and animals. I could do the same for my family. With my new house, I learned to do many things with my own hands and do. My hands are good and nurturing life and fixing things that may seem dead, which I think you will agree is useful to have around the house.
My mother taught me the importance of love and understanding. I could always talk with my mother about anything. She taught me to cook and to listen. Through her examples, she taught me how to care for others first, and to do great things without expecting recognition. I am humble because of my mother. My mother taught me to love that which you come from, and respect what you use. She also taught me to be true; I think you will find that I am one of the realest, honest, caring people you will meet.
Last, but not least, I am committed to be active in mind, body, and spirit. This fire for life in me is fueled to new levels by your daughter and her perspective. In symbolism of the new world Sueann has opened up for me, I am giving her the gift of another hemisphere.
Please consider me for the position as serving as loving faithful boyfriend to your most excellent daughter, Sueann. I think you will find through my deeds, experience, and life that I am a great man for her. For the past 6 months the majority of my free time has been with your daughter having some of the most memorable joyous experiences I have ever had. I love Sueann very much and would go to great means for her.
Ever since I was little, I knew great things were in store for me. Early life experiences taught me the importance of honesty, perseverance, and hard work. Growing up, I did various jobs to help those in my community and provide for those things I need in my life. My first official job was as a dishwasher/prep cook and I also cooked for my family often, which should be an indication of my kitchen skills. Please have some of my homemade Sueann Friendly bread as a token of this. I love cooking new dishes for your daughter and promise to share in household chores because I see them as a shared responsibility. When Sueann was having an open house and little time to get ready, I took off work to clean and do work on her house.
Through my hard work and dedication, I have received great character references and never had a problem pleasing those I work for. Before I finished my master’s degree, I received a faculty position at Washington State University. This career has a bright future and my talents have been recognized as I have recently received two job offers and a healthy promotion after just 3 years. My teaching and mentoring role is also growing. I am in charge of a new cutting edge analytical laboratory that analyzes samples for forensics, biology, hydrology, astronomy, and global change research throughout the world, with clientele and capabilities growing constantly. My efforts have allowed me to support myself through school and buy a home.
My father and grandfather instilled in me that anything is possible if you believe you can do it. Both also taught me the importance of family. My father left a high paying accountant job to raise our family on an earthy crunchy farm because he cared so much about our experience being wholesome and healthy. My dad built our house, fixed our cars, and raised our crops and animals. I could do the same for my family. With my new house, I learned to do many things with my own hands and do. My hands are good and nurturing life and fixing things that may seem dead, which I think you will agree is useful to have around the house.
My mother taught me the importance of love and understanding. I could always talk with my mother about anything. She taught me to cook and to listen. Through her examples, she taught me how to care for others first, and to do great things without expecting recognition. I am humble because of my mother. My mother taught me to love that which you come from, and respect what you use. She also taught me to be true; I think you will find that I am one of the realest, honest, caring people you will meet.
Last, but not least, I am committed to be active in mind, body, and spirit. This fire for life in me is fueled to new levels by your daughter and her perspective. In symbolism of the new world Sueann has opened up for me, I am giving her the gift of another hemisphere.
Baby it's cold outside...
Still no matter what, you fill me with warmth. It could be simply from the warmth of your spirit as evidenced by the cheer you bring to all those around you. When I see photos you take, people smile genuinely because they feel you on the other end of the lens. Much like when you are on the radio, you bring happiness with your far outstretched arms. You openly give love to the world around.
Maybe it’s your deeds that bring me warmth. You write such incredible things to me. You help me cut firewood. You help me garden. You cook such wonderful meals for me, crafted from scratch and the most wholesome ingredients. You show your appreciation for me in so many ways. It is always straight from your overflowing heart.
Maybe it’s the fire you create inside me. That is all encompassing; a culmination of all that you are and do for me. You drive me wild with your style, personality and actions. The passion of our interaction could keep us warm on the coldest winter nights. And as I’ve told you, there’s no reason it can’t be like this everday. I plan on loving you more and stronger every day of my existence. You are the fuel for this fire in me, making me a better man. I am solely yours. Curl up close to me, and I will share this immense heat.
Maybe it’s your deeds that bring me warmth. You write such incredible things to me. You help me cut firewood. You help me garden. You cook such wonderful meals for me, crafted from scratch and the most wholesome ingredients. You show your appreciation for me in so many ways. It is always straight from your overflowing heart.
Maybe it’s the fire you create inside me. That is all encompassing; a culmination of all that you are and do for me. You drive me wild with your style, personality and actions. The passion of our interaction could keep us warm on the coldest winter nights. And as I’ve told you, there’s no reason it can’t be like this everday. I plan on loving you more and stronger every day of my existence. You are the fuel for this fire in me, making me a better man. I am solely yours. Curl up close to me, and I will share this immense heat.
Warm, soft, sweet
A Touch, whisper
Home beneath finger tips
In front of lips
In your eyes
I pull you closer, embracing strength
Gently, tighter
There is no confusion
Oh, how I need you
Oh, what I would do for you
Breathe on my neck
Closer, faster, deeper
One touch to full embrace
Two become one
Only in dreams did I think it could be like this
This is too perfect to be dreaming.
Synapses regenerate
Earth shakes with anticipation
This is the ultimate highness
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